Fear consumes you. Worry paralyzes you. Doubt swallows you whole. There’s nothing more exhausting than fighting your own mind. The things that we fret over most, sometimes don’t even come to be. We do more damage worrying than the possible outcomes that we angst over, ever could.
I used to think that if I was in control then I’d be alright. I fought to map out my days ahead of me, striving to get all the details right so that nothing was left up to chance. Oftentimes this came in the form of my eating disorder. I planned every meal, snack, mile I’d run, social situations to avoid where food might be involved, grocery trips, etc. I was oblivious to the personal hell I was living, so long as my days fit into the neat little box I created in my mind.
Following a very dark and seemingly endless relapse after the birth of my son, I managed to get back into recovery by the grace of God. A little over two years later and I still battle fear every day. I’m learning that Satan is the Father of lies. He knows how to use fear to cripple me. Which means he knows you just as well. I’m finding out just how important it is to run to truth. The only place to find it is in the Word of God.
“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.”
Psalms 56:3 ESV
I do not have the energy to try to untangle my thoughts on my own anymore. It takes conscious effort, but the less time I spend staying stuck in my head, and the quicker I take my fears to God I can move forward. The enemy can’t hold me the same way he used to. I have to remind myself to leave that fear with God once I give it to Him. If I take it back, I hand it over again and again until it’s gone.
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.”
Psalms 34:4 ESV
It really is this easy. God doesn’t want us to live in fear!! The key is to seek Him. I know sometimes we’d rather obsess and try to piece together our future. For some of us it’s automatic. However, there is such freedom in letting it all go. It takes time to change your thinking but with Jesus you can. Don’t stay stuck, paralyzed, and miserable!
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.”
1 John 4:18 ESV
Give yourself permission to rest in the perfect love of Christ. Chances are the things you are worried about right now won’t even matter a year from now. Keep the faith.