We are forever fighting a battle between right versus wrong, good versus evil. All choices we make, big and small, have the capability of impacting ourselves and others for better or worse. For the most part we know right from wrong. As adults we aren’t naive. However our sinful nature quickly convinces us that wrong is right, and right is wrong. In moments of weakness and lack of accountability, we give into sinful desires—only to find they didn’t satisfy and often added insult to injury in the process. Thus begins the cycle where we forget grace and jump right back into works or “law.” We convince ourselves we will “do better” and “try harder”, only to find ourselves sinning once more.
Paul understood this so very well. I find Romans chapter 7 such a comfort as I questioned my salvation at times because I couldn’t get a grip on my sin. I knew what was right, but I couldn’t do it. If I was a true Christian, shouldn’t I be able to get it together?!
“For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.”
Romans 7:18-20 ESV
Paul acknowledged he understood right from wrong, yet still found himself battling the same sin. He recognized the war against his sinful nature. Even Paul’s good intentions weren’t enough.
“For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.”
Romans 7:22-23 ESV
Even those who love the Lord with all their hearts are going to struggle with sin. You may get up every day, read your Bible, pray, listen to worship music, serve God in countless ways, and yet STILL battle habitual patterns of sin you hate.
Please don’t feel as if God loves you less.
Please don’t call yourself a failure.
Please don’t give up.
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”
Romans 8:37 ESV
Even though it may seem like you’re in a constant war (because you are), you are more than a conqueror already through Christ. Your mistakes have been paid for. They don’t shock God. Keep looking, running, and stumbling to the cross. You’ll never lose.