I hear so many stories of people being used by God. I become anxious wondering if God will use me too. At times I find myself envious of the way I see others living out their lives for the Lord. I begin to question if I am even capable of serving Him well.
I grew up in a dysfunctional and abusive home, which led me to leave when I was 15 years old. I developed a lot of mixed messages about love and my purpose in the world. As I grew older I made many poor choices and started to believe I was only put on this earth to cause chaos. I felt as though I ruined everything I touched and hurt everyone I came into contact with. It wasn’t until recently that I found the truth.
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”
Ephesians 2:10 ESV
There is nothing in that scripture which says, “created for chaos, destruction, and hurt.” Do we at times make choices that have detrimental consequences for us and the people we come into contact with? Yes. We are by nature sinful. However, we were not created to continue sinning. We were created IN Jesus Christ to do good works. We may have the best of intentions, but usually that’s not enough. With Jesus, we have the power to carry out the good we always hoped we were capable of.
I was not designed to be, or to believe, that I’m just a useless perpetual screw up—and neither were you.
So now what? If you’re anything like me, you’ll start planning ways to serve God, go at them full steam, and then feel like a failure when they don’t pan out. You find yourself stuck in yet again the same mindset, “Maybe God doesn’t want to use me after all.”
Take a look at what Paul says:
“Of this gospel I was made a minister according to the gift of God’s grace, which was given me by the working of his power.”
Ephesians 3:7 ESV
“By the working of his power.” Paul didn’t choose his mission. He didn’t force it. He was called to it. Through the power of Christ, Paul served God.
I believe if we pray, are willing, love the Lord, and are diligent in listening to the Spirit’s voice—we will be shown where and when God wants us to serve Him. He will make known to us opportunities. They most likely will not be what we had in mind. Look at Paul! God works in ways far beyond our comprehension. Be patient and know that you were created for good works!
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,”
Ephesians 3:20 ESV
His power is at work within you! Start believing the truth about who you are in Christ and what your purpose is. You weren’t meant to survive this life and then die.
“”You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.”
Matthew 5:14 ESV
Let your light shine friends.